Stuck in Limbo

As much as I know what I need to do, its like a part of me still holds on to some kind of hope. It makes me feel stupid, it makes me feel unwanted, and above all it makes me feel worthless. But somehow it still makes me want it. I guess its human nature; always wanting what you can't have? Pathetic, I know.

Love shouldn't make you wait. Love shouldn't make you beg. It's either you want me or you don't, not a 'we'll see..' & to be honest, 99.9% of me already knows what decision you're going to make. But that 1%, that 1%! still makes me hold on. & I hate it. It's so unfair. I know I should just say fuck it. A lot of people are telling me to just fuck it. But its always easier said than done. Under the circumstances, theres been already enough factors that would normally make me walk away and never turn back. But this time its different... & I really don't know why.